Another day..still as miserable as ever and cannot be cheered anymore. Thought after talking to some of my friends to cheer up yesterday, but still doesn't work at all. My heart still as painful as ever before that made me emotionless. Last night, before I slept, I cried as the pain in my heart is still there and also when talking to some of my friends, I also cried. This is the first time I cried because of this total sadness. Now, nothing can stop me from being emotionless. Because of this total sadness, I can't eat properly, I can't sleep properly and I can't do anything at all. Thought I can cheer myself up by practicing my drumming skills, but it doesn't work at all. I tried to play some games, but it also doesn't work at all. Also, this sadness almost made me to kill myself as the pain in my heart is really like being broken into millions of pieces and cannot be put back together again.

That's all I gonna say..